So, I’m a student in college I am majoring in medical coding I just got a job as a medical records clerk. Work and perseverance has got me where I am right now. I’m actually a recovering addict, life has not been easy for me. I left that life years ago. I don’t miss being ripped of and stolen from, literally going threw a different phone every month. After my dad died I was almost homeless I had people that helped me along the way. I finally met my boyfriend who I have been with for 4 years. During these years I worked at goodwill got promoted to third key. Left goodwill because I was sick of the drama I then went to Walmart. I entered myself back in to college for pharmacy tech I was doing pretty well. I got a job offer at one of our local hospitals and during the first two weeks of working there I suffered a massive mental breakdown. My anxiety came at me full force and I had to quit because I could barely stand going outside. During this time I continued with my education and not give up even though mentally I was a mess. I ended up passing my first semester with a B and a C, I could of done so much better. But at that time that was my best. It took over 6 months for me to get my shit back together. I started drinking a lot and finally quit, I spent my summer shut in the house away from people. When August came I had a purpose again. Back to school, back to work. I now feel so much happier, I feel like I’m almost back to my normal self. It has been extremely hard but I push myself to keep going to matter what. The more people tell me I can’t do something the more I aim to prove them wrong. I know how to work hard. Most of my childhood was spent being a competitive swimmer. Running, lifting weights and swimming was everyday and during the weekends swim meets. I continued this life until I was 15 and burnt out. In high school I got pregnant my senior year by my high school boyfriend. I entered into vocational school for medical assisting, I ended up getting the highest grade in my class both years I was there. After high school I was a stay at home mom and dicked around for several years. I regret my active addiction days, but my kids were always kept safe. This is just a summary run up of my shitty life. For some reason now that I’m older everything going smoothly just doesn’t happen for me. There is always several obstacles involved to getting where I need to be. I don’t have many friends I had to cut all the crack heads out of my life, they talk shit about because I actually have expectations for myself and I’m a good person with strong moral values. I have one friend, she took in a heroine addict a couple years ago and her house has pretty much become a crackhouse. There is 3 people living there, all on drugs, all using her car eating her food and whatever else. I have no secrets I have always been really good to my friends and anyone I come in contact with. My friend is a retired disability judge. We used to be close close until this girl moved in. I believe she has brain washed my friend. I’m not sure when crackwhore’s became relevant. I feel bad for her because there is nothing I can do. Maybe someday she will know I’ve been nothing but good to her. I’m not sure what my friend thinks, I think she has maybe lost it due to losing her son and family members in the last year. I understand not wanting to be alone, but I don’t think the company she is keeping is worth it. I’m not mad at my friend, I’m just unsure why you would help people that clearly don’t deserve it. I do nothing but work my ass off and nobody gives me any freebies. But someone that sits around doing drugs everyday for the last several years of their life with no intention or want for help or to quit has been offered a free car by my friend. My friend is basically giving these people a free ride when they should be out there working like everybody else. We are talking about able bodied adults here in their late 40’s. I pray to god my friend does not leave her Gorgeous house that she built herself to that scum. I hope she leaves everything to her grandkids. I wish there was more I could do but pulling someone out of denial is sometimes impossible. I always get blamed for other peoples problems that literally have nothing to do with me. So something happens to you how is that my fault ex specially when I’m not even around. People are strange here where I live majority of them are on meth, or heroine. It is a epidemic, I wish the police would crack down harder on drug trafficking. I’m a very family oriented person and keeping my family safe and taken care of is one of my main goals in life. I also take my career and college very seriously, this is my future. I pray I don’t have to overcome anymore obstacles I’m literally so tired I would be eternally grateful if I could just graduate and get my experience in healthcare with any downfalls. Anyways, this is just my anonymous blog. I thoroughly enjoy writing. This is my first post, and whoever reads it. I hope you enjoy and want to read more of my posts.
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